Catch up chats

Just Wolfish Delight| Reintroduced

Hello all! I didn’t manage to get a welcome post up yesterday but it’s here now! Welcome, to my new blog. Hopefully I won’t be doing anymore blog changes, I’m getting a bit tired of it now. 

But this was a necessary change, self hosting wasn’t the best course of action for me but you’ll be getting a post on that later. 

I decided to call this blog “justwolfishdelight” because I felt it described how I wanted this blog to be, just an extension of me. Wolfish delight has become my online persona of sorts over the past couple of years but at the end of the day, it’s just me. 

I don’t have any major ambitious plans for this blog if I’m being honest, it’ll just be about me and whatever is going on in my life. But I think that’s how I want it to be. 

Thank you to those of you who have followed me thus far, I really do appreciate the support ❤

Until next time 🙂

Catch up chats

Spending three years in sixth form and why that’s okay

So as some of you may know, I failed chemistry in year 12 so I took a different subject and am now staying an extra year in sixth form. It seemed like a big deal when happened but I’m glad it did because it allowed me to find a new course that I’m mega excited to study at uni, I’ve never truly been this excited about any of the other courses I was considering. Plus I’m far more capable of possibly getting high grades this time!

While it took my mum a while to come round and not be as disappointed as she was in me, she eventually did and for the most part my dad’s been ok with it too. So now we’re at a good place.

Last night my parents went to this birthday party and an old friend/my past tutor was also there. Upon finding out about me staying an extra year she made comments about how I could’ve worked harder or changed the subject earlier on. I mean it’s none of her business really and only I know how much I struggled both in school and with my mental health that year, easily the worst year in my life atm. Plus add in the fact that I didn’t have my own room in the months leading up to my exams due to construction so my bed was set up in the living room….

It just frustrates me how people look down on you if you’re staying an extra year, as if I’ve just completely screwed up my life. I’m going to uni one measly little year after my peers and in the grand scheme of things, I doubt it’s going to matter all that much.

There’s so much pressure on teenagers to stay within these strict time limits, forgetting that we also do have the rest of our lives to accomplish things. Some people realise what they actually want to do in their 20s, 30s, 40s. It’s unfair to expect 18 year olds to pick their careers and map out our entire lives when only weeks before you’re making us ask permission to go to the toilet and our opinions are disregarded because we’re only teenagers.

Even the word teenagers has negative connotations.

I’m not ashamed about staying an extra year and I’m sure as hell not ashamed for failing chemistry, that shit was hard and I tried my best given the situation. I think people need to mind their own business, I know what I’m doing with my life and I’m excited! At the end of the day, that’s all that matters to me.

Until next time 🙂

Catch up chats

Career plans and UCAS

So at the beginning of this week I had to go into school and start on my university application. It only took me two hours because I did all of this last year so I knew what to do, plus my form tutor has known me for years and is an absolute gem who let me leave early after I had done my draft of my personal statement.

While I have been researching universities for months now, full well knowing that I will be applying to them in Autumn, it was so odd sitting in my room and putting in all the uni and course codes. This time it’s real! I have applied to many things in my life, and I’ve been filling in forms for my family (and others!) for a long long time. But I have never felt the way I felt when I was entering all those codes while sitting on my bed, I found it hard to breathe and my heart was about jump out of my freaking chest. In that moment I couldn’t understand why, it’s not like I’m submitting it now!

But I think it was just the concept of it all, you know UniversityThe big thing that I’ve been building up to ever since I stepped into school. While it is still just education, it’s no longer “just school” where you see your friends everyday and your teacher will be reminding you about that piece of homework you need to hand in. You’ll be on your own effectively, and having to motivate yourself every step of the way.

While I seem like a nervous wreck about going to uni, I’m also really excited. In a way I’ve never really been excited about education before! I put that down to finding a course and career I’m really interested in. Like, really interested in. That course, ladies and gentlemen, is none other than Forensic science. That’s right, I wanna wander around crime scenes in a marshmallow looking hazard suit for a living. There’s more to it of course, but I’m dead excited to get started.

For this reason, and this reason alone, I’m incredibly grateful to year 12 me for failing chemistry AS. Because if I hadn’t I would’ve ended up applying to do forensic psychology. Which is ok I guess but by the end of exams I wanted to burn anything I owned that was remotely related to my psychology A levels. Can’t imagine I’d enjoy three years of degree level of psychology…

I also visited my local uni on a science trip and we spent the whole day in the building where all the practical stuff for my course would be taught. And the person leading the whole event was the person who teaches forensic science so :O While it isn’t my first choice of uni, I’m planning on having it as my insurance choice as the entry requirements are lower than the others and I would still enjoy going there.

Wow I wasn’t expecting this post to be this long…

Well I’ll try not to make it any longer! I hope this post was somewhat interesting, until next time 🙂